I really don't know why it is, but even though I'm not working near as hard as I was a year ago, I seem to have less and less time to myself anymore... and even less time for blogging or reading blogs.
I guess a lot of it has to do with trying to get one household up and running from a long, long distance... and trying to shut one down, right here at home.
The renovations here are taking a lot longer than I had initially planned, but to tell you the truth, back when I started this journey of " heading home", I had a lot more $$'s coming in, and they were sure as hell coming in on a much more regular basis.
Nowadays, it's a matter of trying to decide if I want to buy paint or materials... or if I want to buy food.
Or maybe even some sanity. Which would be utterly lovely, I think.
And if it were just me, I know which option I would go for.
And which option my well padded butt would probably highly recommend.
But unfortunately for me at the present time, I have a teenager who seems to be pretty partial to eating at least 2 square meals a day.
And if you've ever had teenagers (or if you've ever been one yourself, I guess) I bet you know that they're pretty much bottom-less pits at times, and they sure as tooting aren't cheap to keep!
And those inevitable "growth spurts" when they try and cram a weeks worth of food into just a couple of short hours? Well.... all I can say is: Oi vey! That's enough growing, already!
I honestly feel like I've been to hell and back the last few months, with one thing or another... and I can't wait until everything settles down once again, and I can at least feel like I at least have some semblance of control in my life again.
Even if I don't really.
There's just been so much happening in my life lately - good, bad and indifferent - but most of it on the "middlin' to bad" side - that even though I know that I need to talk about it and get the weight of some of it off my chest, so to speak.... I also know that I just can't do it right now. I just don't have the energy.
Like these old shoes, I feel just plumb worn out at the present moment...
But I'm not ready for the scrap heap quite yet...
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I think you know you have a lot of support from your friends here in the blue nowhere. I'll be keeping you in my thoughts and wishing you bright blessings in hopes that the trials and tribulations cease and you come home soon.
We're right here for you, Kate! It will come together, that's what I keep telling myself too. I can't get my blog to work right. As soon as I get that figured out, I will blog some again. Those shoes are pitiful! We will take up a collection! Love you, very precious lady!
Oh my, you are in a crappy place right now. Where did you get those shoes and socks?? Can I send you some money for a new pair?
You do know that being in two places at once is next to impossible don't you? Something has got to give.
You were suppose to be home in the spring and this "purgatory" that you find yourself in is awful... that in between place called.. "I want to go home but I can't yet. I'm still here."
Take a deep breath. Do what you have to do and then get on a plane and come home.
It will all work out sweetie. I just know it will.
Always wishing you the best, my dear friend! Thinking good thoughts for you!
Oh dear Katie, it's awful being in limbo, you do sound down in the dumps so I will pray for clarity & the means to make the choices you need to in order to come "home"!
Hugs.......
Sometimes getting things done takes more time than we think. At least you have a plan and are working away toward it. Eventually you'll be back in California and wonder why you took such upset at the length of time it took. All good things are worth waiting for, Katie!
Time for some real serious praying and asking and leaning. Farmlady is right, stretched between two places and lives is a bad place to be in. Sometimes we just cut the losses and go for it.
i think we are living through very hard times now for everyone and I don't know anybody who isn't feeling like this. And for getting things done---well that's a big fat ditto. I didn't realize those were old shoes at first I thought you had pulled one of my pranks and broke both your feet!
Casseroles and starch are good to fill up boys, big pots of mashed potatoes...
Ditto everyone else. I would dare to bet each of us have been in the same shoes a time or two. Need to unload? We are here and we all love you.
Prayers and love coming your way.
Things will get better, I promise. And then they'll get worse again, and then they'll get better again... Just keep on plugging away at life, knowing that you have friends to encourage you - and make sure you take a good, long, nap every now and then.
Just take one day at a time and don't spend too much $ on the upgrades. The new buyers will just come in and change it all, anyway! Or at least that's what they do here!
You gotta keep eating--that's where your energy comes from, girlfriend. ;-)
And whenever you need to share those burdens, we'll be right here!
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