Which is kind of nice, I think.
I'm just taking time to breathe... to experience... and to revel in the timelessness of having a little bit of "time" to myself.
I'm needing it, to be sure... since the last few weeks have been fraught with sorrow and heartache, worrying and waiting.
We unexpectedly lost my dearly loved ex brother in law, and my sons' Uncle Dwight, on my birthday.
Within a month - from start to finish - cancer claimed his life.
We're now sitting on pins and needles, waiting for a beautiful child (Matthew -one of my daycare children) to take his final breath... after so many years of illness and pain.
There's been pain and loss ... yet there's been an equal and almost overwhelming joy in the releasing - and promise of release - from painful and life-debilitating bonds.
I can only imagine the rejoicing that's going on in heaven right now, with Dwight re-joining his brothers and sisters and his loving Mom.
And I can only imagine the joyful anticipation going on in heaven right now, with this gorgeous little lad on the very last leg of his journey, before returning home to the loving arms of God.
It's been a rough couple of weeks, but somehow... it's also been a joyful and peaceful time.
~~Peace on the outside, comes from knowing God on the inside.~~
And what I know is good.